Change

So I went home for Thanksgiving and can I just ask when did I get this old?

I went to a house party with all of my old friends from high school some who I havent seen for like a year and a half....

....it secretly upset me

while I was at that house I felt like I was 17 again playing flip cup with all of the people I grew up with

instead its 2.5 years after graduation and everyone has changed in their own ways

someone has a baby, several have coke problems, some are more self centered, some are exactly the same.

I wonder if they think I've changed(i think ive grown up alot)

and if they think I have i wonder if they think im better or worse.

whats sad is if i had a time machine I would still go back to 8th grade(best year ever)

I would redo high school and def do homework and try in school instead of worrying about what boy I wanted to like.

Then maybe I would have gone to a college I really liked and wouldn't be in this rut

I am happy that I got out of Westlake but sometimes I miss it...it's just so comfortable to me even though its not the same anymore.